Thursday, June 26, 2014

I faced a dragon....

cartoon of a knight facing a flying dragon

 Okay, obviously not literally (so don't start calling me Khaleesi, even though she's a bad ass). But I did recently face something that terrifies me, the dentist!

GIF Steve Martin dentist from Little Shop of Horrors

 To put this into perspective, how about a little back story? Way back in the day, when dinosaurs roamed the Earth (otherwise known as Junior High), I had the most horrible overbite. Seriously, some chipmunks and rabbits had better aligned teeth than I did.

Chip and Dale

So like all good parents, they decided to get me braces to fix my overbite. Since I was young (10-11 years old), I hadn't lost all of my baby teeth yet. So before I could get my braces, any baby teeth I still had (plus some extra teeth that were crowding my adult teeth) had to be surgically removed. So I went to an oral surgeon to have the teeth extracted. It is this visit that lies the origin of my fear. The night before the surgery, after dinner (the last meal I was allowed to eat until after the surgery) I was given a pill to help me relax and sleep.

The day of the surgery, I went in and they drugged me again along with a round of nitrous oxide (aka laughing gas) and I was out. In theory, as young as I was that amount of sedation should have knocked me out until the entire procedure was done right? WRONG! I'm not sure exactly how long the surgery was supposed to take, but as some point I WOKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE OPERATION! I remember waking up, the surgeon and the nurses hovering over me, instruments and gauze in my mouth, I'm bleeding profusely....and I freaked out. I'm not sure they realized I was awake at first, but I started making noise indicating my distress. I ended up throwing up and they had to rush a trash bag to my side where I lost what little I had in my stomach (remember I hadn't eaten since the evening before). Most of it got into the trash bag, but I did end up with some of it in my hair. I was mortified. But of course the operation wasn't over, so they ended up having to gas me again and thankfully I stayed out until it was over. But the harm was done. Sure I ended up getting the braces, and having to go through two years of orthodontic appointments, but only because I had no other choice. But once those braces came off, I stopped going to the dentist.

me in the dental chair
Me, facing the dragon

Fast forward almost 20 years, and my wonderful husband insists I go to the dentist for at least a checkup and a professional cleaning. It took a lot of cajoling (and some bribery) but I finally agreed to go. The hygenist was super nice, trying to work with me and my anxiety. I was fine for the x-rays (they have this cool one that looks like something out of Star Trek that does a complete 360 loop around your head) and the beginning of the cleaning. They had a TV on, my husband was in the room, and they even let me hold the suction thing. But part way though I started to freak out and panic and we had to stop. It took some time, but I agreed to keep going and go through the cleaning. After the x-rays, the cleaning, and the examination there's good news and bad news. The good news is that considering how long I've gone without a proper visit to the dentist, my teeth aren't in too bad a shape. I do have a few cavities that will need filling, but not too many. The bad news is, my wisdom teeth need removed.

Has to get wisdom teeth out gets painkillers and ice cream for a week meme

As you can imagine, the idea of having another dental surgery done is not helping with my anxiety. I'll do it because it has to be done to avoid further complications, but I don't like it. So while I faced the dragon, the dragon has not been slayed yet.....

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Feel the heat!

ombre top walking shorts Toms wedges
Top: Old Navy; Shorts: Bass; Shoes: Toms; Necklace: Kenneth Cole via Von Maur; Watch: Vince Camuto via Von Maur

Summer is in full swing around here, today we topped the 90 degree mark and it looks like it's going to stick around for a while. As much as I'd love to wear as little as possible, the office dress code says otherwise. Thankfully the dress code is also pretty casual, so a light weight top and longer shorts fits the bill and keeps me cool.

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

Where do you see yourself in five years? comic strip

Time is a funny thing, it seems the older I get, the faster it seems to go. Personally, I try to live my life day to day, enjoying the little things. That being said, it's always fun to look into the future and imagine where you might be 1, 5, 10, 15 years down the line. Of course you can make plans till the cows come home, and they don't always turn out the way you think, but both my husband and I think that having goals to aim for is important to us. So for fun, let's look at where I think I'll be in 5 years (not necessarily a bucket list as that's for another post).

Maxine comic

-In better shape. While I would love to loose a few pounds, my top priority is really to get myself into better shape and health. I've suffered from illness and injury that has caused my 31 year old body on some days to feel more like it's 81. I know I can't stop myself from getting older, but I have some control on how my body ages. 

student loans comic

-Closer to being debt free. Don't get me wrong, I highly value my education and going to graduate school and getting my masters was a great decision based on my situation. However, I hate how expensive getting an education is these days. I'm glad I'm done and got a good job, so I no longer feel like I just have an expensive piece of paper hanging on my wall, but it was still expensive.

crazy cat lady starter kit

-Mom to a cat or two. Right now our apartment doesn't allow pets of any kind. While we're okay with this now (our apartment is pretty nice all things considering), eventually we'd like to get a couple of cats. Of course this will requiring moving to a place that would allow pets, which for now isn't really necessary or a top priority.

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

The Secret It Out!

If you've seen on Twitter (or if you are my friend on Facebook), you'll have seen my exciting announcement on Sunday.......

five ish fangirls podcast logo

I've joined up with four of my friends and we've started our own podcast!!!

This idea has been festering for a while, but it finally came into fruition recently (mostly due to schedule issues). It been interesting to say the least, getting this off the ground. I've become the "tech person" in the group, doing the recording, editing, and uploading of content. It's hard work, but man is it fun! We're hoping to post shows weekly, but it may end up being bi-weekly depending on everyone's schedule. 

Right now since we're doing this on a zero budget, all episodes will only be available on YouTube and for download from Google Drive (the link will be different for each episode, so make sure to check in the show notes on the blog and/or the information box on YouTube). Eventually we'd like to get our own website with a dedicated server so that we can host the episodes so they can be available on iTunes (it's more complicated than that, but I won't get into that here).

I hope that you'll give us a listen. We aren't professionals my any means, but we are having a blast coming up with show topics and ideas for other fun stuff down the road.