Day #30 of the challenge: React to this term-Letting go
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By now you all know about my job search woes and the effect it has had on me both physically and emotionally. So today's prompt fits in well as letting go is something that I've struggled to do during this process. Some may hear "letting go" and think "giving up" as in quitting. But that's not what I'm talking about here, in my case letting go is turning all my stress, fear and anxiety over to God. For so long I've been focused on finding a job with my nose to the grindstone spending hours upon hours networking and applying for positions. But I haven't been listening to what God wants me to do, what HIS plans are for my career and in turn I've found myself depressed with each week that goes by with no prospects. However several weeks ago after leaving church, the hubby and I were talking about the sermon and how it spoke to both of us. I honestly don't remember the specifics of the sermon or our conversation, but I remember telling Chauncey how I was so tired of waiting and how I wanted results for my efforts. But as the conversation progressed I realized that I had been making it all about me! I don't tend to be self-centered, so this realization was a bit of a shock. So over the course of the next few days I turned to God, praying for guidance and support in turning my job search over to him. Between prayer and talks with my husband, I feel better. Am I 100% okay with my current situation, of course not, that isn't the point. The point is that I'm okay with allowing God to be in control. That doesn't mean I'm just going to sit on my rear and wait for the job offers to come in. I know it isn't that easy. But obviously the approach I was taking wasn't working, so now I'm coming up with a new approach. Will this new approach get results? I don't know, but it isn't my job to know. Am I going to get frustrated, probably, I'm only human. But at the end of the day my life is in His hands, which I think a great place to be.