I'm not a control freak....

Day #7 of the blogging challenge: The thing(s) you are most afraid of

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I'm a planner. I'm not the Type-A personality who has to be in charge of everything (my lack of organization in my desk area is a sure sign of that), but I like to research out things and use what I found to make plans and decisions. I like to think of it as being an informed and educated individual. 

That being said, one of my biggest fears (besides a universal shortage of bacon and the permanent closure of all Disney theme parks) is the future. I know that there is so much that I have no say in, natural disasters, illness, the actions of others affecting me; but I can't help but worry about what the future may bring. My husband and I have a long-term plan of what we want our life together to look like which I love (plans make me calm) but any potential change in that plan or hiccup could throw me into a fit (especially if it's sudden...I can almost handle a hiccup if I have some warning...that is sad, I feel the need to plan for a hiccup in plan). Even when we go on something like a vacation I don't handle changes in plans very well. So you can imagine what something like a job loss or illness would make me feel like. So I have to learn that even the best laid plans may require a change, or even worse, go into something with no plans at all (winging it...my worst nightmare!) 

I don't bring up my faith much but recently (especially with my continuing frustrations at my job situation) I've been turning to God's Word more for guidance. My church is currently working through a series of sermons going from Genesis to Revelations and we're in the middle of the Old Testament. It's full of stories of God testing his followers, allowing them to show that they have unwavering faith in his decisions and guidance for their lives. Allowing that kind of control to be in someone else's hands I think would knock the knees of even the most resolute person. So when I get frustrated and frightened of what is to come, I have to remember these words*:

Jeremiah 29:11

New International Version (NIV)

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

*Bible verse is from Bible Gateway